Feeble Alibis

[Sha-Sha]

"He's just under alot of stress."
Is what she says after she wipes the blood from her busted lip
Then grips the side of her Christion Dior shades
Hiding her black eye from a world of outsiders looking in
Ready and willing to tell her what a fool she's been
For letting this man put his hands on her time and time again.

"But I love him too much"
Is the explanation that constantly flows from her mouth
Not thinking of the pain she endures every time he lashes out
And she's in too deep to leave
So she cries to release the pain within
Not realizing as long as she stays with him, the pain will never cease.

"He said he won't do it again"
Is the response she gives after she's been showered
With House of Dereon, Gucci, and Prada
It's as though the black eyes, busted lips, and scars don't bother
Cause he's apologized a thousand times and claims "I'll never hit you again"
That's when she falls back into that same game
Where she ALWAYS loses and he heartlessly wins
And yet, he does it again and this time...

"It MY fault"
She begins to blame herself for his foul actions
Lacking the sense to see...
That he only does it because he's too scared to hit a "REAL" man
So she's the one he takes his frustrations out on
After all, she's been blinded by love
Believing she's the reason for all his problems
As she searches for ways to solve them
Not once, stumbling across the truth
That he's the problem and leaving is the only way she'll ever solve it

Until REALITY sets in...
That she is worth more respect that he's giving
And that life is more important that any love a man can pretend to give
So she pours what emotions she has left into a conversation long overdue
Even though she knew that the abuse was soon after she said her peace,
And life as she knew it would be over after she was cruelly beat
As she sees life replaying back in her mind
She wishes she wouldn't have given so many feeble alibis
To cover the pain and sorrow she's been with holding for years
Drowning herself in a pool of shameful tears
She had fallen too deep in love to escape
Only love he ever showed was the scars left on her face
As blood splatters from place to place
From her face to his knuckles to the wall and on the floor
The kiss of the death is laid on her cheek
Softly, she speaks her final three words "I LOVE YOU"
As her eyes roll to the back her head
Her cold body lays in a pool of feeble alibis
DEAD.